the point is that i am not happy anymore. I’m happy when I’m not thinking of you and the problem is that i think of you all the time. and we all know how quickly time runs out. but, distance kills relationships the same way that hearing “kills relationships” kills my heart. because it makes me think of road kill and thats just gross.
but love, i never want to think of you and i apart because sometimes i think we compliment each other perfectly like you’re yellow and im violet and we’re complementary colors. and i could spend all day painting with you in your garage when its muggy outside and in. and the flies are in my face and i dont want to face the fact that summers almost over.
because late august was when everything changed and you decided to let me in and i thought it could last because last summer turned into a year and since then we’ve been together. but we go our separate ways because we live separate lives where our desires are separated into piles which are then filed and stored for another time.
who says we will get another time or another chance? what i want is here with you now when your room’s cold but i feel warm.
like that day on the shore when we had our first date. it was official but not facebook official because no one cares about that anymore. cares like how i care about you so much and you dont even know. i tell you one thing and you listen but you dont listen to my heartbeats when you hear.
and I’m stuck at this impasse because i want more with you but i think its more than you do. like i think about you in my dreams but in reality we’re like paper floating in the air. the wind is a deception and we once had words but those words faded and i don’t know what to say.
but don’t you see? it doesn’t matter what you say or what you do. everything is profound to me.